Thursday, February 28, 2008
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
Oh my gosh! right now this minute I am sick of talking about and thinking about weight and surgery. I feel like I have overloaded my brain with it. I am about to meet a friend to go walk and she works at my gym and all I could think is.. Damn am I gonna prattle on about the freaking surgery, or my weight loss, or what I eat, or how I feel or what people have said to me??? This obsession is wearing on me. I am a normal size now, and bascially the fact of my previous fatness and my current condition is something I can keep to myself, but I am obsessed with talking about it. I know that will not change, I will still continue to seek the attention and the constant reassurance, but Damn I am sick of myself right now. Can I spend 1 day not thinking about weight and food? 1 freaking day? Can I be complimented on something other than my face or figure? I feel like I used to be judged on my intelligence and spunk and now I am just a collection of features and looks. I don't want to seem vain, but I do think I am a pretty person, but is that all I will be when I get to my goal weight? I feel like I am in a personal identity crisis right now.
Posted by Turtle_gurl at 3:06 PM
Monday, February 18, 2008
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Ok, need to write to ya'll and let you know what is going on. I was 222.4 this morning and yesterday, the day before that 222. It is cool, but I have not worked out since tuesday and I know that is the problem. I am starting back tommorrow. I don't feel good about getting off track, this the the longest I have gone without hitting the gym. I have been feeling like I can't get anything done. I have spent all day today updating my food journal and my online food journal and getting all my ducks in order. I am feeling better. I have a plan for this week and 2 days ago I made a large batch of black beans and a batch or chciken chili. So my food is in order and my schedule is planned, I just have to do what I know I should.
I have enjoyed my new job, I am doing very well there. It is weird being around people who don't know the old me. They just know me at size 16, kinda normal sized. I always do my hair and makeup and I think I look nice. I can tell I am being treated as a good looking girl instead of one of the guys. This is new for me. Customers flirt with me and it is so weird too.
I was in the bathroom at work looking at myself in the mirror, and I look so differnt, so trim. I saw light between my thighs, the smooth look of my shirt tucked into my black work pants. I don't look like stuffed sausage. I just feel so small. I love it.
So basically I have been a bit lax this past week, but I am getting back into the swing of it
Wish me luck!
Posted by Turtle_gurl at 5:07 PM
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
I am in GA, sitting in a coffee shop haveing my protein shake, I am doing well. I have a massage o do in less than an hour then I drive to Villa Rica and do another. Then 1 more hat is 2 hours long. Long day! I cleaned my brothers yucky bathroom and livingroom so the day has already been long. I have lost some more weight though! Hope ya'll are doing ok!
Posted by Turtle_gurl at 4:57 PM
Sunday, February 10, 2008
Hit the exactly 75 Pounds down!!! Very happy, Onderland here I come!!
Posted by Turtle_gurl at 4:56 PM
Thursday, February 7, 2008
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Posted by Turtle_gurl at 4:53 PM