Husband's away, now to do chores...

Ok, I dropped the hubby off at the airport.. sigh... I will miss him. It is his first buisness trip. he is going to Grand Rapids Michigan. We will work on having me go with him sometimes, like when he has to go to Atlanta, we can drive. The good news is I can finally get stuff done. Don't get me wrong, I am blessed with tons of free time to get housework and errands done, but I have to stop and make dinner and then when he gets home its just "us" time. I get a lot done when he goes to bed too. I came home and organized the garage, vaccumed the car and the minivan out and steam cleaned the car and the car mats. I just got a steam cleaner recently and I have been really enjoying it. Well I am gonna now work on the laundry and the kitchen. My father-in-law and my Mom are coming next weekend. Joel's work is having Family day and it is the one day a year we can go inside and tour his job and they have a cook out and fun stuff. My mom is really proud of her son-in-law and I know she is looking for more things to brag about him. He really is impressive. Joel's Dad is flighing a plane in and flighing back the same day. I was offered a ride, but Joel warned me that his father would need my weight because the plane is small, and has to be distributed evenly. One more thing that my weight has stopped me from enjoying. I am really touched that Joel shielded me from the possible embarrassment. Joel's family all are slim and fit, so i kinda stick out like a sore thumb. I can't wait till I can blend into family pictures...

Feeling better

Feeling better. My husband, is sweet but usually doesn't say the right thing. He told me that this is a big deal and if we expect the insurance to pay it all (they said that is what they do) that I should calm down and not rush. We don't want to make them mad or cause them any reason to not approve me or slow things down. So I am feeling calm and ok. I was angry, but better now. We have had a mellow day, get up late went to get Japanese food and then a nap. I am kinda sad because my husband is going on a buisness trip tommorrow. I just realized I have never spent the night in the house without Joel. We bought the house August 2006. We got married June 2006. I leave town everyother week to do buisness in Georgia. But Joel has always been here. He goes to bed early a lot. I think I will turn on all the lights and run around being loud LOL. No but it will be weird not to have to keep the noise down.

AAAGGGHHH!!!!!!

ANGRY... I found out today that the info packet never made it to the insurance company. It is being re-sent today and today was when I was supposed to get my approval. The wait starts over again, and the weekend will make it longer too. I feel sick at heart, when I get mad it just melts away to disapointment and sadness....

Getting close...

So, I will probably know by tommorrow or Friday about my approval from the insurance company. When I get it I get to schedule my Gastric Bypass. I want this so bad, but the closer I get the more I get butterflies in my stomach. I have never spent the night in the hospital, never been put under. I got to keep my eyes on the prize. I know that I have made a good decision for me. Just the actual surgery is got me nervous. I have had a bold swagger and have been very assertive about my decision, but the closer I get, the butterflies. I know I will get through this. Just breathe...

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Before Pic

Here it is.. brutal truth. My Before pic. I am 300 pounds standing next to my 129 pound husband. I can't wait until we don't have such a difference in size. Joel loves me, but soon I will too.

My Hubby

Hello Blog world!

So, here goes. I am entering a new world. I am getting Gastric Bypass surgery and now my mind is almost constantly thinking about it. I am excited and happy and obsessed. I spend hours pouring over websites with info, I read Weight loss surgery for dummies cover to cover a few times. I went to all my pre-certification appointments and did everything I am supposed to do. I was so educated about my diet post-op that the dietitian I saw basically did not tell me anything new. She was surprised my my depth of knowledge, and I must admit so was I. I had to write a diet history. Seeing all my hard work and past triumphs and failures was sobering. I Tivo shows about Gastric Bypass surgery. Discovery Health channel has all these great shows. I watch them and get psyched up for my new life. I have made it my mission to find all the things I need post-op. I bought some baby food, tiny baby spoons, low sugar oatmeal, healthy choice cream of chicken soup, I bought small plastic containers for my small portions. I searched high and low for the protein powder I liked and found the cheapest way to get it. GNC has a great powder that tastes great, has very high protein, low sugar, low fat. They even let me try it there at the store. I found on drugstore.com it was 5 dollars cheaper and still is ordered through GNC. I have begun taking biotin to protect my hair. Some people lose hair due to not getting their vitamins, not eating enough protein. I am going to make it my job to make sure I do everything as good as possible. I have researched what medicines I can take when I have a cold or stuffy sinuses. I know what I can't take. I am excited about my future.