November 30, 2007

266.6 today making it exactly 33 pounds down. I also went on a 6 mile walk today, very beautiful.

November 29, 2007

Went to the surgeon today for my 1 month post-op. Today was exactly 4 weeks since surgery. I am down 32 pounds!!! I am in baggy size 20 jeans. I was too big for my 24 jeans before surgery. The surgeon was really proud, teased he should charge me extra for how much I have lost. I showed him my food journal and he told me I was very disciplined, keep up what i am doing. He was glad I am back to water aerobics and said I can start lifting weights in 2 weeks. I can't wait to start my weight training!!! I saw all my clients in GA i did 4 hours of massage and felt fine. I was glad to get back to work. I got my hair colored red to match all my fall stuff, I love fall colors in clothing and in makeup and now I have more freedom in what I wear. I think it makes my green eyes pop. Hope everyone is doing alright, I feel great!

4 Weeks Post-Op November 28th

November 28, 2007

I am in Ga, I got so sick last night throwing up all liquid so i called my surgeon at 2:15 in the morning. He said if it was still that way in the morning I would need to come in. I woke up ok, didn't jump right in, drank some water and waited. I had mint tea and string cheese for breakast. Did well. Had Pintos N cheese from Taco bell (they are 85 cents with tax here!!) so far so good. I did 1 massage already and I have one more left. I think its gonna work out fine. Nothing else to talk about, more later. Also I am mad because I have forgotten my webcam and will have to make my 4 week Post-op video tommorrow with my digital camera. Ugh.

Oh yeah I didn't get the job, they sent me and e-mail

November 27, 2007

Cleaning today, I am driving to GA tonight so I can get back to doing massage. I used to live in Ga and all my old clients are there, so I usually drive (200 miles) back every other week to massage them. It will be exciting to have them all see me 30+ pounds down. I wasn't gonna go back to work till after the new year, but I feel good. I did a massage on Joel Sunday night and I felt good, so I feel I am ready to get back. I also love how toned and tight massage makes my arms and don't want to lose any strength. Wish me luck! Packing takes a while all my equipment clothes and I even bring my own inflatable bed because I stay with my brother at his college apartment. Now I have to pack my special food and equipment for my new way of eating. At least I know that I can hit Taco bell for Pintos N' cheese whenever I need something fast and easy. I am excited! Also I have my 1 month Dr appt on Thursday wish me luck!!

November 26, 2007

November 25, 2007

I spoke to Jason for and hour and a half last night. i haven't spoken to him in 10 years. I told him off for his message, and then found out he had terrible dial-up internet and could not see my video. He was genuinely happy to hear from me. I let him have it. Only thing is... he owned up to his part, apologized and told me of his very abusive upbringing and i came to see that he was not the monster I built him up in my mind to be. He was 12 when he molested me, but at the time he said he could have never predicted the consequences of his actions. He has gone through alcohol and drug abuse in his 20's and come out the other side a responsible decent person. I am not saying what he did is ok, but in my heart i can forgive him.

November 24, 2007

3 Weeks Post-op Update

Happy Thanksgving! Today is the day to clean my house and get ready for company. Everyone is coming tomorrow. They are meeting at other family homes today and then ours tomorrow. So today really isn't Thanksgiving for us. We are gonna scrub and clean and get ready today. We are taking out turkey to a local restaurant and having them smoke it, it is our first Thanksgiving where we are responsible and we want it right, and a smoked turkey rocks. I can't wait to hit Old Navy tomorrow morning! I love Black Friday shopping!

Check out my hubby mopping the floor! Isn't he the greatest?

November 22, 2007

I couldn't sleep, out of nowhere I just started think about what I would say to the cousin who raped me when I was 7, and before I knew it I had heard an entire inner-dialouge that had to be expressed. I made a video for Youtube. It is pretty intense. I looked straight into the lens and said anything I could think of to him. It naturally was not as good as what I had imagined in my head while I layed in bed, but it felt damn good. I recently found ou that the statute of limitations on procecuting him ran out last year. It made me angry. I think this is how I will try to punish him, not much, but something.

Current results

Not feeling well....

Joel I think has the beginning of the flu, I am feeling the stomach part of it... Oh God

Feelin Normal...but better

Feeling energetic, re-arranged my bedroom last night, now sorting through the fallout. I finally hit the point where the weight loss has slowed a little. I will not panic. I am so much better off than when I went into surgery only a breath away from 300 pounds. I will just focus on the basics and not graze. I wore the cutest outfit yesterday. I was given this fall vest with leaves on it and i wore this oatmeal colored 3/4 sleeve shirt with kakhi courderouy pants and my doc marten maryjane shoes. I was the perfect picture of suburban house wife.
I go to the same grocery store near my house a lot and i have gotten to know all the people that work there, I told some of them before i had the surgery and i got tons of compliments yesterday. I feel like i am almost back to normal. I can eat normal stuff, just not a lot. I was able to eat turkey from the sample lady at the grocery store yesterday.
I am able to move like I used to (almost). I don't constantly feel my abdomen like I did the first 2 weeks. Getting back to normal.

2 Weeks Post-Op Video

2 weeks Post-op

Ok, today is exactly 2 Weeks since the surgery. I am 277 pounds exactly. I was 299.6 on day of surgery. I set up my webcam to do my 2 week update video and was shocked! I have stayed away from the webcam an entire week, and in that time i went from a round faced girl to an oval faced woman. I can't believe how different I look. I have a picture of me on my 6 month anniversary with my hubby and I weighed what I do right now, but my face is round. The weight loss this time is different. Maybe it is the fact I barely have any sugar now, I don't know. I will try to post a 2 week update on here, if not I will give the link to Youtube. I am feeling very optimistic right now.

Little behind here are some posts...

Today November 12th..

After yesterdays success with food i decided to still stick to the basics and have liquid for most of the day. I have really gotten good at making my protein shake taste like Starbucks frappuccinos. I put 15 ml of sugar free Hazelnut flavor creamer in the blender, fill it the rest of the way to 8oz line with my 1% Lactaid milk (yes i drink milk) then I add 1 scoop EAS vanilla Wal-mart bought protein powder, 1 tsp sugar free caramel syrup and TBSP of freeze dried Maxwell house coffee. Blend. My secret is to put it in the fridge for at least 30 mins to let the bubbles settle out, shake and drink slowly. Get my coffee fix and tastes like heaven!
I baked salmon and steamed broccoli for dinner... SO good! and my pouch took it with no complaints. Went to the Zoo today and walked downtown and bought a bottle of Honest Tea Peachy Oolong tea labeled "Tad Sweet" only had 8 grams of sugar, sweetened with natural sugar. Very good and didn't make me sick.
Good Day again!

November 11 later that day....
I had an egg for breakfast.. success!! I went out to lunch with my hubby, first time eating out. I had clear onion broth, a shrimp and a scallop and it was perfect. I was satisfied and I didn't have any pain. Doing good. I had 75 grams of protein all my supplements and I went to the gym and walked and sat in the hot tub (sat very shallow to keep incisions dry). Good Day!

November 11 First Post of day

I am home with my hubby, he took notice of the 17 pounds I have lost so far. Got some special attention ;) Anyways today is his 30th birthday. The doctor said i could start some new foods so I tried an egg this moring, and nibbled a cheese cube. So far so good. I could feel my pouch for the first time, very weird. I have been careful not to test it too much up till now. I did not go too far. I am about to go to the gym with my hubby, I am going to the pool and hot tub, just not above my belly button, still too soon I think to get the incisions wet yet. We are going to our favorite restaurant for lunch Mimi's Steak house it is Japanese Hibachi. I am gonna have broth soup, and 1 shrimp and 1 scallop off Joel's plate. Wish me luck!

1 Week Post-Op

1 Week exactly since Surgery!!!!!

Walking My Butt Off ;)

My REAL Hospital Experience

1st Update after Surgery